It is not true that people stop pursuing dreams because they grow old, they grow old because they stop pursuing dreams. – Gabriel García Márquez
I have decided to work on learning maths and learning reverse engineering.
So right now I am watching MIT OCW courses ( MIT_18.01, MIT_18.02 and MIT_18.06) for improving my mathematics knowledge. (all this to attain my final goal of completing a much promised project with requires linear algebra as it deals with computer vision.(hand signs 😀 )).
Along with this I am also working on improving my RE Skills so I will be reading through following books in no particular order
- Game Hacking: Developing Autonomous Bots for Online Games
- (Addison-Wesley Microsoft Technology Series) Johnson M. Hart-Windows System Programming-Addison-Wesley Professional (2010)
- (Software Security Series) Christian Collberg, Jasvir Nagra-Surreptitious Software_ Obfuscation, Watermarking, and Tamperproofing for Software Protection-Addison-Wesley Professional (2009)
- (The Addison-Wesley Microsoft technology series) Mario Hewardt, Daniel Pravat-Advanced Windows Debugging-Addison-Wesley (2008)
- (The Morgan Kaufmann Series in Software Engineering and Programming) John R. Levine-Linkers & Loaders-Morgan Kaufmann (1999)
- Alfred V. Aho, Monica S. Lam, Ravi Sethi, Jeffrey D. Ullman-Compilers – Principles, Techniques, and Tools-Pearson_Addison Wesley (2006)
- Bruce Dang, Alexandre Gazet, Elias Bachaalany-Practical Reverse Engineering x86, x64, ARM, Windows Kernel, Reversing Tools, and Obfuscation-Wiley (2014)
- Jeffrey M. Richter, Christophe Nasarre-Windows via C C++ (Pro – Developer)-Microsoft Press (2007)
- Peter van der Linden -C++ Expert C Programming – Deep C Secrets. -Prentice Hall (1994)
- Steven S. Muchnick-Advanced Compiler Design and Implementation. 1-Morgan Kaufmann (1997)
- Tarik Soulami-Inside Windows debugging _ a practical guide to debugging and tracing strategies in Windows-MS Press (2012)
Just including the list of books for my own reference in case I forget 🙂 later.
Thanks to all the people who read my blog, provided critique and underwent extreme mental torture (making sense of my writing) as English is not my first language and I suck at it.
I want to thank all of you for being so awesome and bearing with it.
(I think we need to thank people more for all the little things they do in life to make others happy, appreciation does wonders)
Thank you again
With love from India
(PS lud in Bulgarian means insane and in Hungarian means goose)
The quote that always keeps me going. 😉
And for the icing, here’s a picture of my nephew.
Often I am asked about how I am so focused, productive and active, and I always tell people how easy it is to be focused, productive and active, You just gotta do “The most illogical thing to do” at that moment.The key here is to not listen to your body, instead forcing your body to do the opposite. (Obviously this won’t work in every scenario, but you can apply this in almost every situation where you feel angry, sad or lazy).
Easy three step process
- First think of how you are feeling right now, Is it sad, angry, lazy.
- Think of the most illogical thing you might want to do
- Just do it!
- Assume you are feeling angry, what you would feel like doing is getting angry on someone, using profanity or beating someone up, so the most illogical thing to do is not do either of these, you gotta force your brain and your body to not give in to anger.
- Second scenario, Assume it’s early morning you don’t want to get out of bed, you body tells you to relax and let time pass, don’t listen to your body, do what’s the most illogical thing, get up, storm the front, exercise, take shower.
There are plenty of similar scenarios in my life where my mind tells me to do things, but my body won’t cooperate, so I force it to cooperate.
At first your body will be like “No, this won’t happen, not in my reign”, but if you keep at it, It will soon obey all your wishes. Our body wants to be lazy, don’t let it have what it wants, you need to deprive it of comfort and push forward like there’s no tomorrow.
It took me months to master this process, But I am loving every bit of it.
This along with few religious rituals (religious rituals as in things you must do every day , like finishing something before you go to sleep.) will boost your productivity.
PS: Read Deep Work @ Amazon, it is a lovely book. thought don’t take in as is, adopt what you like, leave rest of the stuff out.
I told my friends and my family about my decision of quitting tech (“job”) scene and doing something which isn’t mainstream, they were shocked at first but then they came to terms with it, though the series of questions on why I am quitting tech (job) scene won’t stop, so I thought why not make a list of all the valid points(in what I find valid, though they might/might not be rational).
So here I go
- It isn’t fun anymore. (whenever I say that people ask a simple cross question “It isn’t supposed to be fun, jobs aren’t supposed to be fun. what did you expect?” to which I reply “not for me” so far long (12 years period.) I have enjoyed the tech scene I don’t regret any bit of it. But in the past year I have seen it become shit ( 😦 ) maybe I am just getting old or whatever happened, modern world™ isn’t any better, people will realize how shitty it will get once they realize how they are being manipulated by modern world™ technology. exploiting human biases to create human experience™ and appending everything with ™. Do take a look at this awesome article, long yet worth the read : https://medium.com/@tristanharris/how-technology-hijacks-peoples-minds-from-a-magician-and-google-s-design-ethicist-56d62ef5edf3#.da6is48gl)
- It fucked me up real good, with 12 years of fiddling computer, I ended up with broken relations, fucked up life, depressed (because oh my, virtual world was so awesome and whenever I went back to reality it hurt like a fucking truck and it is true our brain gets disappointed it adds up.) and shitton of knowledge about obscure features, programming languages and various computer related things which aren’t exactly useful in real life or today’s modern world™/modern tech scene
- double clicking on the top left corner of any window (windows program) make it exit and it has been there since windows 98.
- Life Happened. I found out what it feels like to be alive, also I don’t want to spend rest of my life sitting in front of a dumb af computer (which will soon be smart thanks to the modern world™ and will end up eliminating humans, SKYNET IS HERE!.)
I can write more about it but I will leave it as is.
image href : https://xkcd.com/1479/
As my new life unfolds and my old one fades away (college sure was interesting :3) , I would like to link to an article I read recently.
(PS : I love raptitude, almost all of his posts hit me like a fucking truck, the language is so simple and effective.)
I would like you to take few minutes out of your busy schedule (pffft, everything is priorities is what I believe, but anyways) and read it.
Out of self-defense, many of us easily settle into scarcity thinking, finding a paradoxical sort of comfort in the idea that there’s never going to be quite enough of anything. We apply this basic idea to all the areas of our lives that matter: Doing what you love for a living is a pipe dream! All the good men are married already! This world is going straight to hell! The good jobs go to people with connections!
We’re always going to be dealing with real limitations in life, but we create a lot of suspiciously absolute beliefs to prevent ourselves from actually bumping up against these limitations. The fearful part of the mind knows you don’t have to have the experience of failure or disappointment as long as you believe trying is a waste of time.