Thanks to all the people who read my blog, provided critique and underwent extreme mental torture (making sense of my writing) as English is not my first language and I suck at it.
I want to thank all of you for being so awesome and bearing with it.
(I think we need to thank people more for all the little things they do in life to make others happy, appreciation does wonders)
Thank you again
With love from India
(PS lud in Bulgarian means insane and in Hungarian means goose)
I told my friends and my family about my decision of quitting tech (“job”) scene and doing something which isn’t mainstream, they were shocked at first but then they came to terms with it, though the series of questions on why I am quitting tech (job) scene won’t stop, so I thought why not make a list of all the valid points(in what I find valid, though they might/might not be rational).
So here I go
- It isn’t fun anymore. (whenever I say that people ask a simple cross question “It isn’t supposed to be fun, jobs aren’t supposed to be fun. what did you expect?” to which I reply “not for me” so far long (12 years period.) I have enjoyed the tech scene I don’t regret any bit of it. But in the past year I have seen it become shit ( 😦 ) maybe I am just getting old or whatever happened, modern world™ isn’t any better, people will realize how shitty it will get once they realize how they are being manipulated by modern world™ technology. exploiting human biases to create human experience™ and appending everything with ™. Do take a look at this awesome article, long yet worth the read : https://medium.com/@tristanharris/how-technology-hijacks-peoples-minds-from-a-magician-and-google-s-design-ethicist-56d62ef5edf3#.da6is48gl)
- It fucked me up real good, with 12 years of fiddling computer, I ended up with broken relations, fucked up life, depressed (because oh my, virtual world was so awesome and whenever I went back to reality it hurt like a fucking truck and it is true our brain gets disappointed it adds up.) and shitton of knowledge about obscure features, programming languages and various computer related things which aren’t exactly useful in real life or today’s modern world™/modern tech scene
- double clicking on the top left corner of any window (windows program) make it exit and it has been there since windows 98.
- Life Happened. I found out what it feels like to be alive, also I don’t want to spend rest of my life sitting in front of a dumb af computer (which will soon be smart thanks to the modern world™ and will end up eliminating humans, SKYNET IS HERE!.)
I can write more about it but I will leave it as is.
image href : https://xkcd.com/1479/
I think I won’t be able to master Japanese or motivate myself to learn it without having actual interaction with a person who speaks Japanese (which is sad). anyhow life has been really hard for me lately and I have no option left but to think about life and question my very existence(NSFW). Yes questioning life and your very existence is the stupidest thing you will ever do(or I did w/e).
So here I am trying to motivate myself out of the self inflicted misery. How wise am I? I have asked this to myself plenty of times, I don’t quite get it, how do I know, how wise a person is?
Blah too many questions with no answers.
For now I will just think positive and not worry about life and its quirks.